The rainy day made for a wonderful chance for the three of
us to finally spend some quiet time together. Faith and Elissa
climbed into my bed and snuggled up to me, at the same time taking
all but a corner of my blanket from my prying hands. It was only
9:00, who wakes up this early, especially in the summer time? I
slowly opened my eyes, and suddenly it hit me. My girls were here,
here in my home. In our home! Finally, I had my babies, only they
weren't babies anymore. My wife was no longer part of our lives.
She had long since lost control of her life. Her drug addiction
had seen to that. I pray for her every night, that she might
surrender and seek help, but it was out of my control. If and
when, she decides to ask for help, I will be the first one there
for her. So now, I was all my angels had, as far as someone to
care for them, nurture them, and provide for them as they
deserved. A man could never understand how much time and energy
goes into being a mother. I for one, never thought it to be such a
big job, after all I was the one out there everyday working a job I
hated and putting the food on the table, as well as paying all the
bills. That was how I thought before. I now a new respect for
motherhood and it seemed to me at the time that I was way over my
head. At that time, the girls were preparing to start at a new
school. Elissa was starting kindergarten and she needed uniforms
for school. So off we went on our first shopping excursion. Three
hours and 2 Advils later, we finally made it back home. It was
getting close to dinner and I decided to take the easy way out and
go thru the fast food window, which seemed to please them just
fine. And then it started to get a little tricky. Do they take
showers? Do they take baths. Do they bathe together. As the weeks
passed by, I began to understand their needs, as well as their
schedules. I was on my way. I was beginning to make the journey
towards motherhood. I cooked them dinner, dressed them for school,
drove them to soccer practice, and yes, believe it or not, I even
joined the p.t.a, along with the other mothers. Two years have
passed, the children have become little ladies. They are helping
me in so many ways. I understand my role as a father and I have
learned that i can never replace the special relationship a young
girl has with her mother. I have no control over that and I accept
it. I can only do what ever it takes to be the best parent
possible for my girls. God knows, I love them more than life
itself, and we shall all live happily ever after. God Bless our
children.
THEY GROW UP OH SO QUICK !
I have no idea where the time went. Wasn't it just
yesterday that we you sat on my lap and we watched Barney together? I can
still remember singing with you, " I love you, you love me" along with baby
bop. Was it really that long ago? How did you grow
so big and so independent, seemingly overnight? When did you learn how
to cook and do your little sisters hair so nice? The phone rings and it's
always for you, making it clear that you have made a lot of friends and be
spending less time with me. When did you begin calling me "dad", instead of
"daddy"? I remember how hard it was to leave you that first day you went
to nursery school. I want my baby back, I wish I could slow things down and
cherish every moment that I had taken for grant it.
"Okay dad, I mean daddy. you
need to slow down and take a deep breath. First of all, I'm only eleven
and your acting like I'm in an old folks home. You know how much I love you
dad, and I'll always be your baby girl. Let's not focus on your fear of the
future , and keep enjoying every day together, just the three of us".
Today I am so very happy to have my two girls by my
side, living together, loving each other, and taking on the roll of "Mister
Mom" to my children.
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SCHOOLS BACK - My kids are back in school and the house feels a
bit empty during the day. I notice only, because I work from my home. Faith
just started 5th grade and she seems surprised if she asks me a math
question , that sometimes I'm really not sure of what they really want to
know. I was always good at math, but the other day she asked me a question
and I had no clue what they were talking about. I mean, I could answer the
problem, but I couldn't explain to her how to write it out. Elissa is in
second grade now. She brings home A's and 100's consistently. I haven't been
giving them enough of my time lately. I'm constantly on the computer or the
phone, trying to get my Dental plan business up and running. I spend a
couple hours a day putting out fliers and handing out brochures, and then
it's back home working on the internet. I'm doing this for them and I think
they understand ,how my success is going to lead us to a more comfortable
life. Well, so long for now my friends.
There is a long story of how I became a single father
Unfortunately, this is not the time to tell it. I have been
raising my girls now for just over 2 years, and we've
become the 3 amigos. Faith just turned 11 in June, and
Elissa is now 7. We live in south Florida and love to go
swimming a few times a week in our pool. The girls just started
back at school and I can't believe how much
they've matured and have become so independent. Well,
that's it for now....Mister Mom
